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Motivation Lost and Found and a Bump in the road

Hey all!

Firstly, I need to apologise for my lack of writing recently. I actually forgot I had a blog until I saw the email come through for yet another renewal of the platform. I paid without even thinking and then thought “hang on, why am I paying for this if I’m not even blogging?”.

So anyway, here I am and I’ve now promised myself I will keep this blog a bit more active. I won’t promise you but I will promise myself which should be strong enough reason to keep it, ha.

I want to give you a brief update on my running life this year (since I have not written one single post about running this year). In terms of races I did two 5km races, two 10kms, 4 half marathons, and a marathon.

Unfortunately, I only PBd in one of the 10km races. My new PB is 42:50. The biggest reason for my poor racing form was lack of motivation. Especially lack of motivation for hard workouts.

I still ran and sort of trained but I always gave up on my hard runs, especially tempo runs. I would go for a run and within one km I would come up with an excuse of why I didn’t have to complete the whole distance or why I didn’t have to keep that pace. These negative thoughts just spiralled into never hitting my paces on my training runs anymore. I still went to a lot of my races with overly optimistic attitude thinking I’m still gonna be fit and PB even though I haven’t trained but obviously the reality was I didn’t. Each race this year was worse than the other. In my last half marathon in Cardiff in October I stopped for about 4 times as I thought I was going to die, faint or puke, and I wasn’t even going fast. I think my time was around 1:45 in the end (PB is 1:34).

There is no one else to blame other than myself, after 6 years of running I know that you have to train hard in order to see results. It’s actually funny that for years I struggled to run slow because I wanted every run to be fast and I worried about how slow my pace is on long runs whereas this year I really nailed the running slow bit, I was slower than ever on my easy runs but I just got so comfortable that I never wanted to run fast again. Haha.

Having studied sport psychology I should know better than the mindset is everything. If I dreaded my hard workouts the night before and woke up knowing it was going to be tough it was always going to be hard. As soon as I started running I would just kind of spiral into this negative circle of “well I didn’t do my 6km tempo last week either so no point doing my 8km tempo now”. Also in races “well I’m not going to get a PB so I may as well walk for a bit”. How stupid is that? Very stupid :). Then there would be the days of “I’m tired, I’m hungover, I haven’t eaten properly, I’m stressed.. ” and the list goes on. Motivation is a strange thing. I watched other people train and I follow so many people on Instagram and I just couldn’t understand how they had the energy to train the way they did. Normally these posts would motivate me but this summer/autumn I just had no energy whatsoever.

I even ran a race in Finland this year!

 

So what did I do? After the terrible Cardiff half marathon I took couple of weeks off running because I wanted a mental break from it. And funnily enough, my motivation creeped back and wanted me to start training properly again. In the few weeks I had off and then the first few weeks back I wasn’t doing much, about 3 runs a week but all those PBs started flashing in my eyes and I was ready to go again with a fresh mind and actually start nailing the hard workouts. I was so excited and motivated for about 2 weeks but then life happened. As it always does.

I’ve been on a waiting list for a surgery for months (to remove a hernia so nothing too serious) but I didn’t think I was ever going to get an appointment (thanks to my not so great experiences with the NHS in the UK). However, two weeks ago I had a letter saying I would have my operation at the end of this month. When I called to ask about recovery times they said it’s about a month, sometimes longer. So here we are now, I’m obviously glad it’s getting sorted after 11 months on the waiting list but it’s made my motivation go out the window. I mean, what’s the point in working hard and getting fit only to then have to take a month off and start all over again? I guess you could do that but that’s not how my motivation works. As soon as that letter came in, out went my motivation.

Oh well. Life is what happens when you’re too busy making other plans. Or whatever the saying is.

I will update you on my post-op recovery and hopefully, (fingers crossed) I can start running again in January and my motivation will join me on those training runs 🙂

Have a lovely rest of your Sunday! xx

 

10k race recap

I did my first 10k race on Sunday and thought I’d post my first race recap here.

I have raced a 5k twice and half marathons and marathons a bit more but never a 10k. I sort of had a feeling it would be a tough distance to run and my lovely friend Minna kept telling me that too and warning it’s gonna be afwul (thanks :D). And she was right, it was afwul. Maybe it was the fact that my knee had been playing up and I had to take a week of running prior to the race or the pacing or both but it felt tough as.

It was an event in Bute Park organised by Women’s Running Magazine and despite the rainy and windy conditions the whole organization and race was great.

I started off very excited and very quick at the start together with 3 other women. I looked at my watch and realised I’m running faster splits than my best 5k time but was too ambitious to slow down at first. I hang on with the first three runners for about 1k and then passed the third one. After about 2k the front two runners were starting to disappear to the distance and I thought they must’ve really picked up the pace. Looking down at my Garmin I realised it was me who had slowed down drastically. At around 4k mark I was completely done, I felt afwul and literally just wanted to give up. All the typical negative thoughts in my head telling me how I can’t cope it’s too hard I won’t even stay third the person behind me will overtake me soon I won’t get my goal time etc etc.. Until the marathon runner and a future sport psychologist in me remembered the power of positive self-talk and how it’s all in the head, eventually starting to repeat the “I can I can I can”.

Whenever the wind got tough I also reminded mysef  that everyone else has that wind too, it’s not like it’s just me who will be affected by it and there’s no point in worrying about the external things you can’t control. A cyclist who went past me at one point informed me I’m third (which I knew but in a way gave me that extra boost I needed). JP was there to support me as well and because it was running laps I saw him three times which definitely helped.

I slowed down massively towards the end and my 1k time between 8 and 9k was slower than my average time for a half marathon last year, showing how badly my pacing went. I really should have stuck with the slower pace from the start but oh well.. Live and learn aye.
My goal time was 42-43 minutes (quite ambitious I guess) and did not happen. It was windy and had some very steep U-turns and some running on the grass which added to the time a little bit but excuses aside, the main reason I didn’t get my goal time was just the lack of fitness and afwul pacing 😀

Ended up running 44:17 and managed to keep my third place. Lucky for me all the “real” and elite runners were in Bristol doing the 10k so I got on the podium. Got awarded with bottle of Prosecco and a pair of Skechers which definitely made up for not running my goal time.

A little video of the day and my short interview at the end on this link: http://womensrunninguk.co.uk/wr10k-2015/cardiff-race-report/

Not impressed with how they spelt my name though.. Pille-Piinn?? Haha.
Couple of photos from the day too:

Getting to the finish. Apparently that woman just stepped in front of the picture right when JP was taking the photo. (I think he just doesn't know how to use the camera :D)
Getting to the finish. Apparently that woman just stepped in front of the picture right when JP was taking the photo. (I think he just doesn’t know how to use the camera :D)

 

Getting my Skechers prize
Getting my Skechers prize

 

Very excited to be on the podium
Very excited to be on the podium

 

Have a great week!

xx